Tuesday, September 22, 2009
(Warning: This will be an extremely random rambling entry.)
He's such a liar. It makes me laugh. I'm really quite impressed with his system; he's not stupid. Except he can't figure in the gossip of the other girls and their friends. I would ask him the question, but three things are holding me back. A) He would lie. B) I would have to answer the same question. C) I'm kind of not sure if I want to know.
I like him. Not the same him as above. But he's in another state and he's older and I love his soul. I really hope he can work everything out and when he comes back... When he comes back I will be in his life and he'll be in mine and everything will be happy and movie-like. We'll smile and laugh and fish and sit in cheap lawn chairs in the backyard and drink root beer because we're staying sober together. And I'll help him with school, and he'll help me with relaxing. It would be so good.
Ugh. Fuckfufckfuck. Stupid people. I love Villa. I love him, I love him. I love Tyler. He's amazing. Yet at the same time they're both awful.
I stabbed myself with a pen today because I got a question worng on a Spanish vocab test.
I'm fat.
And actually, I'm still quite happy. Very happy. I just need to get this damn stuff out of my head before I go crazy with it. Once it's out, I'm done with it. And everything is better.
I'm going to Homecoming now. I got my dress today. I love it. It makes me feel very pretty.
I'm going to see Backseat Goodbye on the 18th. Yay.
I'm tired and I need to practice my guitar more because I really, really, really want to learn to play. But I never seem to have time or motivation enough to do it. Grr. I should do it right now. I think I might.
I wish I could fall in love. No, I don't. Not yet. But I do want to eventually. I looks so wonderous.
Goodnight.
Posted by Alex at 7:17 PM