Thursday, May 20, 2010
I am so confused. My thoughts are completely chaotic. My emotions go all over the place. There's no controlling it. I don't know what's wrong with me, exactly. It's hard to pin down, because it feels like everything is wrong. At least right now it does. In a half hour I might be giggling hysterically and feeling like all is right with the world. I just know I hate the uncertainty. I don't know when I'm going to go up or down. There's no pattern to it and I feel so out of control.. I hate not having control. And it's causing problems. I have a couple ways to get control. To make my mind shut up. But they're not very.. appropriate. Or safe. Or legal.
I keep hearing stories and I'm wondering how this all happened. Sometimes things feel hopeless. But sometimes they feel amazing. I don't know..
Anyway, here are some things I can smile about:
- Kyrstin and I are having a picnic Saturday.
- I have new books.
- School is almost out. (Only six more actual days!)
- My hair is getting longer.
- I love my mother.
- Gabby is happy.
- Timmy likes me.. hehe.
- We're getting a puppy soon.
So, yeah. Yay. (:
Posted by Alex at 5:28 PM