Sunday, May 30, 2010
I've never felt this way about a guy before.
I can only admit it here.
I'm so scared.. yet so happy.
I feel high around him. He's intoxicating. I love the way he smells, the way he looks, the way he acts, the way he speaks.. I can't believe I didn't notice it before.
Honestly.. I can't believe I'm saying this. It sounds so stupid, naive, and immature. But I think I love him. I really do. It's been two fucking days and I think I'm in love him! What the hell has taken over my heart?? This is insanity. But it feels so right.
And I am so scared. I feel like I'm flying with him, but any second he's going to shoot holes in my paper wings and I'll come crashing down. Everyone who knows us keeps telling me things like: "You finally found a keeper, Alex," and, "He's such a great guy," and, "You two are perfect for each other." I'm crazy about him, and apparently he's crazy about me too. But I'm still wary. I can feel his power to hurt me building, and I hate it. But I refuse to let that stop us from getting close. I think I have a really good thing going here. I won't let go of it.
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I am so happy. (:
Posted by Alex at 8:24 PM