Sunday, June 27, 2010
I guess this all started because of Jasper, my bunny baby. I'm convinced I'll never be a good mother. I'll fuck it up. I want to have kids. I think about it sometimes. But then I make myself stop because I know I can't do it. I wouldn't be good enough. I'd fuck them up. I don't want to fuck them up. I don't want to hurt anyone..
And. _________. _______. ______. And I feel old and worthless, like my body is being used up and I'll never be wanted again. Which totally freaks me out. And I'm shocked and sickened by myself for putting my worth on my body.
I don't know.
Posted by Alex at 8:17 PM